Well I am currently in Baghdad, Iraq, or better yet, I am at Camp Victory Base, Iraq. It is hot here, but it is also beautiful. There are palm trees, palaces and so far it has been absolutely quiet. I am enjoying it. I wonder if it is because it is something different from what I have seen in the last 3 months or if I would truly enjoy it better than where I am currently deployed to? I am here for a court-martial proceeding that should only last about 30 minutes maximum, and even that is if there were something crazy to happen. In a few days I should be heading home. There are mixed emotions about this. Obviously most of my feelings are, I can not wait, I am so excited. But at the same time, I worry about these things, as simple as they are, yes I worry:
(by the way they are not in any type of order)
1.) I worry that my dog is not going to recognize me or remember me and that will break my heart. Since before I left, he was my love able baby boy who would run to his mommy for love when his daddy would yell at him.
2.) That with the time change and all the traveling the first couple days I am going to be so tired that I am not going to want to do anything (although I don't this will happen)
3.) That I will go to the casino and blow a lot of money and even though I am having fun doing it, that I will end up regretting it later. (but the again, I am making more money while I am deployed and I still have many months to make back all the money I lose).
4.) That my boyfriend won't be used to me being around and things will be a little weird. Not saying that he does not love me or that our relationship is not great, but I have been gone for 3 months. He has been living his life without me there and our relationship has been through emails and phone calls. So it can be a hard adjustment for some. I really think we will be so fine. It will be like the honeymoon phase all over again. I know I can't wait to be in his arms again....I love him so much.
5.) That when it is time for me to come back, I will be extremely sad and a little depressed. I know I signed up for this and I love my job and I love doing what I can to help protect this country. But at the same time, it is hard to leave the ones you love behind. Especially not knowing how long you are really going to be gone. I have been able to keep a positive attitude and stay focused while I am here. I just don't want to lose that.
Mostly, I am just excited about coming home, even though it is for such a short period of time. I look forward to the beach, going camping, cuddling with my wonderful boyfriend and my big puppy, sleeping in my boyfriends arms, seeing my family and having a good time at the casino with them, and just spending quality time with my family...seeing my friends, and hopefully seeing Heather and Brads new baby girl Graycie (if she decided to enter the world by then)..get my hair, nails and feet done (this is one of my top priorities)..I know that I will not get to do everything that I want while I am home,but hopefully I can do most of it.....And that I can enjoy all of it....
The traveling, yeah it sucks, but I think because I am so excited, that it will fly by!!! Or at least I hope that it will....I hope that I do not run into a whole lot of delays, cancellations or lay overs from hell....but if I do, it is okay, as long as I make it back into my baby's arms!!!!! These next couple days can not go by quick enough...I mean I was asked to stay here longer to cover down on another court-martial which means that maybe I could just stay here and leave from here!!! Although I am missing my two Cardinals shirts that I really want....But who knows...we will see what the Army has in store for me!!!
Well that is all for now...I will try and post more often!!!
Get home safe!!
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